Yesterday was one of those classic fatherhood days. For the past 3 years, I have found it difficult to have one of those "bleck" days where nothing goes right. I have also found it difficult to have one of those fantastic days where everything goes right. Kids tend to see to it that you have some really good highs and some really good lows, all in the same day.
Let me start with the lows. Lauren was in a "Let's see what I need to do to make daddy's face turn red" mood. I wish I could have seen it coming, but she was in a great mood that morning and even when I walked in the door. I thought I might have a good night right until I said it was bed time. The look on her face was as if I had taken her favorite doll and ripped it's little head off. In her mind, I immediately transformed from SuperDad to OgreDad with 3 little words: "It's bed time". Things just went down hill from there. She tested me at every step, slowly tinting my face from the normal, healthy, pasty white to ever darkening shades of Daffy Duck blowing his top red. Naturally, I did my best to hide my anger since ... well ... blowing up just tends to make the situation worse. You hold onto that until your spouse asks a seemingly innocuous question like "How was your day?" and you can blow up then. From placing her in bed, until she actually was asleep (or at least willing to not get out of bed and yell out the door) took over an hour. Ugh. As any parent, I absolutely loathe feeling angry at my child, but it happens sometimes.
Now for the high. If you are ever feeling down, feeling like you accomplished absolutely nothing in the past 24 hours, I have found the remedy for that. Simply head towards the bathroom and your toddler will demand to follow you. For some reason, potty training toddlers love to see how others do their business to pick up on any best practices. When the distinct sounds of things going in the water emanate from the toilet, he expression of joy on their face will brighten your day. Their exclamations of "You go Pee Pee!! You push out the Poo Poo!!" will instill a pride that Yes ... you did push out the poo poo and you did a darn good job at it. There's just no better feeling.
Now, the truly gifted child will not need a whole day to give you a high and a low. The good ones can achieve that in a mere 15 second span. Case in point, after her 4th time out of bed and yelling out the door, I marched in, angrily picked her up, and forcibly placed her in bed, which caused the water works to go in overdrive. I wasn't proud of this, but I had had enough of the bed time delays. I waited a bit and then snuggled with her to make her feel a little better. After tucking her in for the upteenth time that night, I was praying this one would stick. Even so, I softly whisper, "I love you". As I leave, I hear the following: "I love you too". Crap. Guess I can't be angry after that anymore.
Labels: fatherhood, Lauren