HALLELUJAH!!!!!
I kept having this nightmare that I had gotten up to feed Lauren, but rather than go to the nursery, I just laid in bed with her at my side and fed her that way. Whenever this thought appeared in my head, I became panicked because I thought she was still lying next to me and I had fallen asleep on top of her. At one point, I distinctly remember being convinced I was holding Lauren only to realize it was a bunched up corner of the comforter in my arms. Now, those of you who understand this fear probably have something in common. YOU'RE ALL WOMEN!!!! Why in the world would I be feeding Lauren from bed? This is typically done when there is "equipment" involved that I do not possess. *sigh* I don't know ... fears aren't rational. But everytime this thought hit me, I jumped out of bed to make sure she was still in the bassinet.
I blame all of this on Without a Trace. They had this exact plot line (though it involved a mother who liked mixing alcohol with prescription drugs) and it's now trapped in my head, ready to strike whenever a moment's peace comes over me. I fall asleep; get real comfortable; and *WHAM*Did I just suffocate my daughter?!?!?!?!?. Stupid writers!
posted by Eddie at 09:14
3 Comments:
6 hours in a row!?!? That's amazing. Hope you're able to take more advantage of it next time.
The nightmares sound irritating, but probably pretty normal. You're still adjusting to everything. :)
Post more pictures!!!! :)
I have to echo Heather here -- six hours is freaking awesome! That's about what were getting before, isn't it? Those dreams, I would guess, are fairly normal. I don't know if Jule if ever told you, but she actually had to move Jacob into his nursery earlier than expected because she kept waking herself up to make sure he was still breathing : )
And if you were doing bottle feeding, even as a temporary thing, then you do have the proper equipment and your brain probably just latched on to that ; )
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